Do you know what? We all suffer. It isn't only you. That's why we seek for 'truth' 'god' 'liberation from suffering' 'nirvana'..... But, again but. What is that your are seeking for outside of you? Let your inner world open up. To do that you need to have friends other than humans. Be friends with books, music, art and nature. Be alone. Don't feel alone while alone. You have lots of friends around you.